So I'm single again. And I think it's probably a good idea that I stay this way for a while. For me to work through some stuff.

I think I look too hard for a connection in a relationship when there isn't one. And I know now that not every relationship I have is going to be that way, in fact, most probably won't. And not everyone wants a deep connection anyway. But I do.

I'm looking for love. Real love. Exhilarating, can't-get-enough, consuming love. Someone who thinks I'm the best in the world. Someone I have so much fun with, who makes me laugh, but also someone I can sit with and have a quiet, meaningful conversation. To talk about life, the world, nothing and everything at the same time. Someone who's my best friend, who knows all of me. I had it once. I had it and I pushed it away. And I don't think I will ever get over that, or him.

When the time is right, when I'm ready, I'd like to find it again. After all, the most important thing in life is to love.

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posted by Maresa @ 10:51 PM